Monday, March 28, 2016

The Secret Battle...

For the past 3 1/2 years, I have been on a journey…a journey that began 6 weeks post-partum after my 3rd child.

The Secret Battle that SO MANY mom’s fight alone…

Postpartum Anxiety…

I was that mom who battled it alone out of fear…

Fear of the unknown
Fear of being judged
Fear of being misunderstood

For months I put on the “picture perfect” smile & acted like everything was normal but on the inside I was tormented with anxiety, fear, & sheer panic.

For weeks I couldn’t even drive my kids in the car without having a panic attack, it was a NIGHTMARE!

My life had been completely flipped upside down & I had no idea how to fix it.

I felt completely lost & misunderstood.

My 3rd pregnancy was extremely rough.  After having our daughter the lack of sleep, paired with breastfeeding, Grad school coursework along with the normal demands of every day life my body just went haywire! It literally shut down on me.  I felt such a loss of control and I couldn't understand WHY and WHAT was happening to me!

I was the most controlled, "put-together" person, I tried to be SUPERWOMAN. And it ALL caught up to me.  That was when I realized I had to start putting God & my health first. I had to stop neglecting myself & make the decision to change my life.

The family picture above is symbolic to me because it was the day that I decided to CHANGE...

I had to find ME again. I had to find my balance as a women, wife, mother, daughter, and friend.  And that was when I began my new journey to live a healthier happier life.

I took a leave of absence from Grad school and I started reprioritizing my life and the needs of my family. I took back my health!  I began exercising regularly & changed my nutrition.

Exercise and clean, healthy food became medicine to my body.

I learned to UNPLUG & be still…even though that was totally against my nature! I had to find peace on PURPOSE.  I thank God every day for His never-ending strength, peace, & guidance during those tough times. He still is my CALM in the STORM!

Even though that was the worst time in my life it was also the BEST time in my life.

I have never grown so much spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically during that time in my life. That was when I learned to become"Imperfectly Balanced”.

So whoever you are that needs to hear this...Know TODAY that you are NOT alone in this struggle. There are mom’s ALL around you fighting this same battle.

And I am one of those women!

I am PROOF that you can & will OVERCOME this battle.

Yes, I have to take daily preventative measures to keep stress down but I have been panic attack FREE since 
January 9th, 2013.

If I can do it, YOU CAN DO IT!

But you have to take ACTION. The CHANGE starts with YOU.

ACCEPT that you need HELP.
Get HELP.
Be OPEN & honest.
Surround yourself with people who UPLIFT you.
Be FEARLESS in your pursuit for change.

No...the road to recovery is not easy, but I promise you it is SO WORTH IT! 


Know that He has a plan to prosper you...Plans to give you HOPE & a future! Plans to use your STORY to help others. 

Decide TODAY that you are meant for MORE...choose FREEDOM!



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