Monday, May 12, 2014

Motivational Monday - From the Heart - I will NOT live in FEAR

At some point in our life we have all felt FEAR...Fear can be crippling, debilitating, and all consuming! I know this because I have dealt with it firsthand.  I have always been a "high stress" person, I work better under pressure...most of us do! But a few years ago after my third child, I developed severe postpartum anxiety. It was a nightmare; I had never dealt with anything so hard in my life!  I thought I was "SUPERWOMAN", I thought I could do it ALL, but boy was I wrong.  No matter how structured, organized, and "all together" I was, it didn't matter.  I had three kids under the age of 5, a husband that traveled, a graduate student, a worry wart, and the pressure of being the "PERFECT" wife, mom, and friend.
My world turned upside down in June of 2012 when God woke me up and said “Get your priorities in order"! For a little over a year I dealt with panic attacks and anxiety/fear. I felt a complete loss of control over my body and my thoughts.  Fear of something happening to me, fear of something happening to my children, fear of not being the best wife and mother, worry about finances, worry of not knowing what I was supposed to do with my life and the list could go on consumed my mind. Fear, worry, anxiety & panic were my life for over a year. I still deal with it today and I have to make a daily effort to not think fearful, worrisome thoughts, but I know that through God's strength, I will NOT live in FEAR! Even while I am typing this my eyes fill with tears as I realize how far I've come in two years and where God has brought me today.  God woke me up and made me realize I was missing out on so many things in my life because of control, fear, and worry. I tried to control everything out of fear...fear to protect myself of getting hurt, fear of my children getting hurt; fear of losing control...But God had more and has more for me and for you.  He has a plan and future for me and for you, plans to prosper us, not to harm us, plans to give us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). I realize now this is all a part of my testimony; it has made me who I am today and who I will be in the future. This entire journey has made me a better person, wife, mother, and friend.
So I want to encourage all of you today to confront your fears. "Until the power of fear is broken in our lives, we are held captive to it.  To fulfill His plan for our lives and to enjoy all the blessings He wants to give us, we simply must refuse to live in fear" Joyce Meyer.  
If you struggle with fear, worry, anxiety, panic, depression, illness, whatever it is, accept it, confront it, and give it to Him. I know as a wife & mother that worry and fear comes with the territory, we worry out of love for our children, but that's not the life God has for you!  You can do ALL things with His strength. And God can use anything for good; you just have to let him! I never thought that my anxiety & panic attacks could be used for good, but it is, it is molding and shaping me to be the women God wants me to be.  Joshua 1:9, "Be strong, vigorous, and very courageous. Be not afraid".

Below are pictures of verses that I keep in my phone and when I begin to worry or fearful thoughts creep into my head I read them!

You are a strong, fearless, talented, beautiful, and compassionate woman!!! Choose to live BOLDLY & COURAGEOUSLY! Tell yourself today I will NOT live in FEAR.

xoxo
Ali



 












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